Some years ago, I decided that the only way to solve problems and deal with pain was to kill myself. Obviously I didn’t succeed – either that or I’m Patient Zero of a zombie-disease. 🙂 Anyway, I swallowed approximately 120 strong pain pills and slashed my left wrist (I’m right-handed) and tried to pass from this world. I’m not saying this to shock you, or to gain sympathy, or any positive or negative comments regarding what I did. I’m bringing this up because of what I started reading last night and finished reading this afternoon.
Many might consider Suicidals Anonymous an absolutely terrible novel – because of the taboo subject it focuses on. Others will probably think of the novella as brilliance. Still others, and I’m a part of that minority, will see the novella for what it is – the closest anyone will ever come to understanding the intention to commit suicide.
Rob uses the story of Chris, the *failed* author, and his urge to kill himself to force us to look at just what suicide is and means, but it’s not just suicide that Rob focuses on; things take many turns, shocking, hilarious, deep and very, very dark, and Rob doesn’t allow you to catch your breath. The story absolutely hurtles along, with hardly a pause for toilet breaks or food. Chris is you, me, someone you know. He’s confused, depressed, ebullient, maniacal. I may not have found myself in the situations he found himself in, but I sympathized with everything he went through. How could I not, having survived suicide?
But do you have to be a suicide-survivor to enjoy and understand (at least, on the surface) Chris’ story? Not at all. You may not ‘enjoy’ it, but it’ll probably gut-punch you something heinous. And that is the mark of the kind of stories we all want to read – a story that’ll make you wince, make you swear, make you tremble. A story that’ll make you tremble and want to put the novella down because maybe you don’t want to think about what you’re reading, but you can’t, you’re drawn to the tale, to Chris, to facing the thoughts of suicide you’ve had because of Chris, and to finally understand that wanting to end your own life, on your own terms, for your own reasons, makes you human.
Suicidal’s Anonymous is disturbing, brilliant, funny and uplifting – and not always for the face-value reasons. I urge you to read this and experience it – you may not like it, you may not even understand it, but one thing’s for sure – you’ll look at the world with different eyes.
10 / 10
For more info about Rob and his work, check out his official website here; to order Suicidals Anonymous eBook click here for the US (Kindle), and here for those who frequent MobiPocket. For those wanting a hard copy of the novella, follow this link to Popcorn Press.